More on Resistance

We've been getting rain everyday here on the cliff. There is something settling about the tropical showers and storms here. Maybe it is because whatever is being done outside needs to be stopped and moved inside. Maybe because it makes me want to sit and read for a spell. Maybe because it is simply refreshing.

The ocean has been loud, a consistent and continuous roar for multiple days now. 

We will be leaving Puerto Rico on November 20th~
I took care of the plane tickets yesterday. Only EIGHT days left here at the Coastal Casa. I don't think I realized it was only EIGHT days until I wrote this. {{Slight panic mixed with excitement going on right this minute.}} Our December 18th departure date was too far out for what we want to accomplish by December 1st. It feels good to get the ball rolling.

Once again it is raining; the thunder is rolling; the sea has actually picked up and is even louder now. The wind is whipping in circles causing the palm tree fronds to dance all around. I'm sitting at my desk having just read another section of The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles. I read because I was resistant to doing another round of sorting and packing. I could argue that it's the rain or that I'd done enough for today. Yet neither of these ring true to me. I'm not sure that I really like this book. It could be the book; it could be me. On the other hand, it is making me think more about resistance. I'm questioning why I feel it. Wondering what I could do to eliminate that feeling. The author agitates me.

Page 39
"Are you paralyzed with fear? That's a good sign. 
Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tell us what we have to do.

Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.

Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to us and to the growth of our soul that's why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there'd be no Resistance. 

Have you ever watched Inside the Actors Studio? The host, James Lipton, invariably asks his guests, "What factors make you decide to take a particular role?" The actor always answers: Because I'm afraid of it."

The professional tackels the project that will make him stretch. He takes on the assignment that will bear him into uncharted waters, compel him to explore unconscious parts of himself.

Is he scared? hell, yes. He's petrified...."

Time to leave thinking and writing and go and do some more sorting and packing.